My Life's An Open Book

I spent the whole day processing my S pass. Went from Raffles Clinic at the Tampines Junction to the Ministry of Manpower to Lucky Plaza...It was very very exhausting. I took 1 taxi, 3 buses and 11 mrt coaches all in one day. When I got home, kararating lang ng new housemate namin. Since iniwan kong magulo ang kwarto, i fixed it muna. Tapos dumating na si Rommel from work. Had to cook dinner for the 3 of us plus 2 visitors. While cooking, naglaba na rin ako. Tapos naligo...tapos nagbihis at lumarga ulit. Naki-celebrate kami ng Chinese New Year sa mga taga Chinatown. While waiting for the show to start, naglibot libot muna. Nang mapagod, kumain muna ng pansit at sio mai sa isang Chinese resto. When it was almost midnight, naghanap na kami ng pwesto to see the fireworks. Maganda sya pero sabi ng mga kasama namin, mas maganda raw yung fireworks ng New Year celebration natin sayang lang at hindi ko napanood...may pasok kasi si Rommel that day.

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I've passed my 2nd exam! The long wait has come to an end. I have 1 week to claim my S pass and I can start work after. Although it took me almost 4 months to find this job, I know in my heart that this is what God has reserved for me so I'm going to make the best out what He has given me. What I look forward in this job is the flexibility of pay. If you need more money, you just have to sell more . You need not stay long hours for OT and just be judged for being inefficient. If you don't get a lot of sale, you can still live with the basic salary. Haaay. Of course, I will have to learn a lot about selling. Siguro I'll just search the net or watch 'Boiler Room' for tips.

Now, since that part is done, I am now focusing on how to get Zia to live here legally. It's either through a DP (Dependent Pass) or Rommel applies for PR (Permanent Residency). I have downloaded both application forms but of course I will also need to decide whether to leave her with a yaya or send her to a child care center until January when regular school starts. I've searched the net for maid agencies and child care centers (CCS). I have compared prices. If I send her to a CCS, I will be paying an average of $500 monthly (ang nakakatakot don e uso dito ang manakit ng bata). If I hire an agency to get my yaya back from Pinas, I will have to pay a one time package of $772.60 and arrange the salary at maybe, $250 per month. If I hire from here naman, I'll have to take the risk of hiring a child abuser or kleptomaniac...so that's an option for me. Other necessities (food, clothes, etc) have already been considered as well. Sabi naman ni Mama, why not leave Zia with them while we work here...again that's not an option. Kung magagawan naman talaga ng paraan na magkakasama kami, gagawan ko ng paraan. Again, if it's God's will, then let His will be done. =)

the other day, i received a call from teleperformance. the gentleman on the other line said my s-pass (work permit) has been approved so i just have to pass my last exam this friday and i can start work on feb 11. yipee! pero kabado parin ako sa exams. dito na kasi nakasalalay ang kinabukasan ko..hehehe. bahala na si Lord!

trying to be positive paid off. these past few days, i was preparing for my BCP exam scheduled yesterday. it was hard not to know how they conduct their exams here because i didn't know what to expect. andun yung kaba like when i prepared for my board exams in the philippines. i spent a day reading the whole book. after that, i made notes to familiarize myself with the important points. then, the last 2 days were allotted for memorization. sabi nila, i have to give my best and that was it. however, i have to call on HIM to do the rest, right? while on the mrt, i prayed the 'our father' over and over until i reached the venue. i just sat on the floor while i waited for the room to be opened. when it finally started, i answered all the questions with enough time left for review. after which, i shakingly clicked 'finish'. the only letters that took my attention were P-A-S-S. yahoo! one down, one more to go on feb 1.

yun lang...share ko lang. :)

im not feeling myself lately. i don't know if it's depression or pms. the things i ignore before, make me ballistic now. could it be hormones? or could it be the lack of things to do...no, it can't be the latter as i have a lot on my hands now....well, maybe that's it. maybe thinking about my upcoming exams, doing the budget, cleaning the house, cooking meals, doing the laundry, and buying the groceries stress me out.  i like being a housewife but since im not used to doing this EVERYDAY back home, it really drains me out.

well, i don't know if im making it worse but just recently, we adopted 3 pinays, one of which was a colleague at my 2-day-job. well, it's a long story. im keeping them until the end of this month when they get their salaries and find a place to stay. they were kind enough naman to offer us groceries as contribution. in other words, if i do everything for 2 before, i now do everything for 5. ain't that grand? i can't complain because we're also running out of funds, without them, we'll be eating salt flavored rice. so, i should still say, "thank you, god!"

as much as possible, i try to be positive but when i see or hear anything negative, i easily lose it. i just hope people around me would understand what im going through. i think i just need a pat on the back or something good that would really make my day. it's just like instead of criticising me because i get easily annoyed on the smallest thing, tell me something nice about myself to make me feel better...you'll see a positive me.

It's not hard to make decisions when you know what your values are.  ~Roy Disney

Decisions become easier when your will to please God outweighs your will to please the world.  ~Anso Coetzer

Character is the final decision to reject whatever is demeaning to oneself or to others and with confidence and honesty choose what is right - Anonymous

Just thought to share with you these...

I started applying for jobs again last Jan 2. Hindi talaga ako consistent. Like now, hindi na naman ako nag aapply. Well, Im expecting a job early Feb. Sana nga ito na coz I had a trial job just last Jan 7. It was a telemarketing job selling Google adwords. Ok sana kasi Google pero walang systema...hindi organized...at manu-manu. They had me sign an agreement na kapag nakumpleto ang 15 days, they'll give $25 for each day. Tapos kailangan maka 16 ako na sales at the end of it. Pag na-meet ko yung requirements nila, dun palang nila iisipin kung iha-hire nila ako. Otherwise, wala akong makukuha. Sabi rin nila na pag ayaw ko na, I can just leave the company.

Edi eto na, on my first day, akala ko may training, pero pinagbasa lang kami ng tungkol sa google adwords. The next day, pinag-calls kami. I saw na there were 2 teams. Yung isang team puro locals at puro may telesales experience at yung isang team puro pinoy at walang telesales experience. Hulaan niyo san ako? Syempre dun sa mga pinoy...san pa nga ba? Anyway, after we had lunch that day, napagusapan namin ang mga tinatagong hinanaing sa kumpanya and without realizing it napag desisyunan naming umuwi na. Ang suma total e nag boycott kami at isang grupo ang nawala sa kanila.

Malakas ang loob ko kasi nga like what I said, may naghihintay na kumpanya sa akin. Kailangan ko lang maipasa yung exam for insurance na requirement ng govt, which sabi ng mga pinoy na kakilala ko, madali lang. Naisubmit ko na nga yung mga documents ko e. Im also waiting for their call kasi I asked kung pwede nila akong i-consider sa Campaigns Reporting Executive position na nakita kong naka post online. Mas gamay ko yun kasi reports generating ang trabaho kesa pag pinagbenta nila ako ng insurance na kahit sa panaginip hindi ko pa nagawa. Well, let's see what happens.

Yun nalang muna. Hanggang sa susunod na kabanata.

Dec 21

It's Rommel's day off and he went with me to my interview. The job's not for me. They need someone who can lift printers, copiers, etc. Haha. Mukhang dun parin ako sa insurance telemarketing job.

Dec 22

Happy 41st wedding anniversary to you, Ma & Pa! They're in Cebu with my little girl celebrating with my sister and other relatives. See you on summer!

Dec 23

Singapore, Canada and Cebu had a conference call through Skype. Nakakainis lang 'coz Ate's webcam and Kuya's microphone kept on turning off. I don't know why. Wala rin ang 'da kids' 'coz they're taking their siesta. Sa uulitin.

Dec 24

Kahit malayo kami sa Pinas, I made it a point to have something for Noche Buena. I went to Giant in Tampines to buy the ingredients. I planned to have leche flan, churros con chocolate, and pasta on our table by midnight. Nadagdagan lang ng honey bbq chicken and california maki. Since Rommel had work and I knew he'd be hungry, I made him a shrimp dish and pasta in pesto sauce for dinner. Walang rice for a change. Bagay naman. I had pictures kaya lang they're too big to upload.

Dec 25

Rommel and I attended the 1030 am mass. Then, we went to Rommel's friends' flat for a get-together. Food binge na naman. They also exchanged gifts. Syempre audience lang ako but it's ok. Again, Singapore, Canada and Cebu reunited...this time with the kiddos. Ang saya talaga kahit sandali lang.

Dec 26

I just stayed at home and did nothing. I didn't have to cook as there were leftovers I needed to finish.

Dec 27

I started watching Heroes season 2. YahooI Im again addicted.

Dec 28

I finished Heroes season 2. Im now waiting for Season 3. :)

Today is my 2nd monthsary in Singapore...haha. Jobless but still beautiful..naks! Kahit sandali palang, ang dami ko ng natutunan at narating on my own. Dito ko natutunan ang value ng video streaming. Since I arrived, ang dami ko ng napanood na movies na kahit hindi pa pinapalabas sa big screen, available na online. It keeps me company lalo na nung wala pa kaming cable tv. Kahit hindi malinaw, basta naiintindihan, pinapanood ko na. For you who have not discovered the sites yet, here are some of our favorites:

1. Telebisyon - http://telebisyon.spreebb.com/. Sorry, they don't accept new members anymore. Aside from movies, meron din silang mga palabas like soap operas, news, and other tv programs sa pinas.

2. Watch-movies.net - http://www.watch-movies.net/ This site shows English movies only.

3. Project Free Tv - http://www.free-tv-video-online.info/ English movies only.

4. Online Cinema - http://www.onlinecinema.org/ English movies only. Ito ang mga unang website na palagi kong pinupuntahan pero inulit nila yung links nila kaya naguluhan na ako.

5. Katambay - http://www.katambay.com/ Pinoy movies plus more. The last time I checked out this site, under construction pa. Dito ko napanood ang Kasal, Kasali, Kasalo ni Judy Ann & Ryan. Hahaha.

Some sites will require you to download veoh and divx to play the movies you like. Minsan lang maiinis ka sa bagal ng buffering pero wag ka lang magsasawa sa kakahanap sa google ng ibang version kung gusto mo talagang tapusin yung movie.

Anyway, that's just a suggestion but if you prefer the big screen, go ahead. :)

Last Tuesday, I got a call from Teleperformance (meron din sa Pinas nito) Singapore. They're looking for telemarketers. I think it turned out well pero hindi pa sure kasi I have to pass the exam required for people who will be selling insurance. Meron namang tutorial kaya mukhang ok lang. While I was waiting for the interviewer, I got another call from another company, scheduling me for an interview on Friday. Sana nga magsunod sunod na para makapagtrabaho na. Medyo napapahaba na ang bakasyon ko e baka pag tumagal pa, hindi ko na gustuhing magwork.

Wish me luck.

Week of Oct 8 - 14

Ever since I started my terminal leave, I'd been planning my trip to Singapore. I had several trips to SM para lang sa groceries and other stuff. I also had trips to banks to prepare our bank accounts para hindi mahirapan sila Mama...added her to our remittance account... linked their bpi acct to ours para madaling magtransfer...and got a supplementary credit card under her name for Zia's needs. Lahat din ng files sa mga loans, bank accounts and Zia's school, naayos ko na. Sana lang walang maging problema.

Monday, Oct 15

Packed my things to see kung may kulang pa and kung within the limit and weight.

Thursday, Oct 19

Arranged my clearance for my final pay. I went to the office at 3am and ended at 9am. Gusto pa nga akong pabalikin dahil raw ang IT manager in charge would come in at 2pm. Diyos ko! Hindi ko na kaya yon noh so I asked my friend, Dada, who finishes work around that time to bring it to the IT dept. Ayun naayos naman.

Friday, Oct 20

In the morning, I played badminton with Dada. Sobrang one-to-sawa pala pag umaga kay naman nanakit ang mga legs ko. Planned to go to SM again for some last minute requests kaya lang sumabog ang Glorietta kaya natakot na akong mag-mall. That night, I met up with my closest friends, Dada, Jai, Jinkee, Cherry & BF, and RJ. Kasama nga rin pala si Zia. Ang masaya diyan ay at last, nagkita na si Jai and Che na medyo nagkaproblema before. Hindi naman sa nakikialam ako pero dapat na talagang tapusin nila ang hindi pagpapansinan.

Saturday, Oct 21

D-Day! Woke up at 7am to prepare my things for the nth time...takot kasi ako baka may makalimutan ako or baka mag excess baggage. Grabe! Magkasing bigat lang ang checkin ko at ang handcarried. Pano naisip ko hindi naman nila sinusukat yung handcarried kaya yun ang dinamihan ko. Ang nilagay ko nalang sa checkin yung mga hindi pwede sa plane.

Anyway, medyo late na ako nakapag check in pero umabot parin. We boarded the plane siguro mga 10 mins before 12pm and it took off siguro mga 1210pm. Hay naku, tinulugan ko lang ang 3 hrs na flight ko para hindi ko maramdaman ang gutom.

Pagdating ko, pumasyal agad kami ni Rommel sa mga malls sa Orchard, namely: Lucky Plaza, Takashimaya, Paragon, and Wisma. Tapos we met up with Reena, yung GF ng brother niya, sa Borders (parang Powerbooks) to eat dinner. Dapat it's our treat kasi birthday niya ng Oct 21 pero nagpumilit na siya raw ang magbayad. Anyway, nakauwi siguro kami ng mga past 10pm.

Sunday, Oct 21

We went to Suntec kasi may job fair daw pero when we got there, lahat ng companies require Singaporeans or PRs to apply. Hindi pwede ang foreigners. Haay nagpagod lang kami. After that, malling na naman kami. Punta kami Marina Bay, Raffles City, Takashimaya, Wisma, OUB Centre (closed naman), and Giant (Supermarket). Sumusuko na talaga ang mga kalyo ko sa talampakan pero go parin. Pag uwi dito, konting galaw galaw at ayun nakatulog na si Rommel. Ako naman tiningnan ko yung classified ads kasi pag Saturday maraming job postings sa dyaryo. Marami naman akong nakita kaya bukas wala akong gagawin kundi magpadala ng magpadala ng email.

Kapagod pero masaya...unti unti ko na binubuo ang dreams ko dito.

Last night, I sent a message to my colleague saying I'd be on flex for 1 hr but in the end, I still rendered full 8 hrs shift, may OT pa kasi nakauwi ako mga 10 am na dapat 6 am. Hay! I still work hard pero I get shit in return.

Anyway, my friends from college contacted me and asked me to meet them in Makati 'coz one of them will be leaving for work abroad. I told them I can meet them in the afternoon. We have agreed to meet up at 5pm in Greenbelt. I slept at around 1pm, after chatting with Rommel. Yaya woke me up saying Papa was calling me. I checked the clock and it showed 5pm. Yikes! I hurried to take a shower and I arrived at Greenbelt around 645pm. Nahuli pa nga kami ni Papa ng pulis kasi he turned left na naka red na yung light. I brought Zia with me kasi baka matagal na siya ulit makikita ng Ninang Anna niya.

Nagkita kami sa Di Mark's. Nagkwentuhan galore at si Zia todo kain. I just found out, gusto niya ng cheese pizza. We also took pictures of ourselves. 3 cameras for the same pose, pano nakakatamad na magsend ng magsend ng pics. If you can see sa mga pics, parang may barkada kaming unano (that's Zia). I try my best to spend time with my little girl kahit ganitong mga occasions. We also got coffee from Seattle's Best kasi hindi pa nila natitikman ang favorite kong Javanilla shake. As expected, they liked it. Mga 930 kami naghiwalay. Anna went to the MRT, kami sa Park Square for the shuttle, and Marie went to SGV to get a cab. Haay, how time flies...parang kelan lang...kasama ko lang silang mag-aral sa La Salle. Kakulitan at kabiruan. Now, kailangan na naming maghiwalay to seek greener pastures abroad, Marie going to UK and me going to Singapore. Sana magsucceed kaming lahat sa aming mga plano sa buhay.

    

LOW POINT

The other day, I told my boss that I stopped getting attendance reports from one of the processes I handle. I found out that while I was gone, they have met and talked about borrowing one of the analysts from another process to work with me. It was agreed upon by both parties but take note, it's a borrowed resource so it means I should still be copied in all correspondences about their process. Anyway, therefore, my boss emailed them and reminded them of such. Instead of getting a positive feedback, the bitch (new boss) sent an unprofessional email. She, basically, destroyed me in that letter. When I expressed my sentiments to my immediate superior and manager, they showed their support and told me they're on my side. They even escalated it to our VP, who is a foreigner. The latter sent an email to the bitch and reprimanded her. Lalong maloloka ang gaga! Hehehe. I always get kakampi from AVPs and VPs...ever since.I asked approval for a terminal leave pero they requested for me to stay muna. Sabi ko nalang if something like this happens again, I will have to insist to leave early because I don't deserve this treatment. None of my previous bosses in the Company ever complained about me. For the two years, I have never been given a corrective action. I always get a positive feedback from them. Nalaman ko pa, ang dami rin palang galit sa kanya. Sana siya nalang ang matanggal. If that happens and our paths cross again, I will laugh at her face. Sa sobrang laki ng gulo, lahat sa department ko, galit sa kanya. "Yeah, that's teamwork, Bitch! Do you know such a term? (Sila kasi kanya kanya kaya hindi ma-meet ang targets.) Tapos isisisi sa iba! Bobo!"

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HIGH POINT

Zia's party was a success! Kahit na-late kami sa dapat na 10:30AM, hindi kami nag extend tulad nung nagbirthday niyang classmate last Monday. And, they had so much fun. Check out the pictures.

When I got home at 7:30 am. I slept for a few minutes then when I woke up. I started working on the party hats, the program and the cake. After Pa and I dropped Zia off to school,  we went to SM to pick up the food.  I sent yaya  to her school to look after Zia and to wait for the delivery of her cake. When we reached SM Mcdo, akala ko sabi nila prepared na. I waited parin dahil ang 10 nuggets happy meal na order ko naging 10 pcs nuggets order. Ano tig-iisa lang sila...sobrang nairita talaga ako. Anyway, nung nakarating kami sa school, tumakbo agad ako sa katabing bahay to get the balloons I ordered the previous night. Friend ni Lani (childhood friend ko) ang may ari ng store.

We started the party with games. Merong Jellyace Race, unahan silang kumain ng 1 Jellyace. Kahit may winner, lahat parin sila nakatanggap ng prize. Sumunod naman ang statue dance. Same thing, lahat sila nakatanggap ng prize. Ano yung prize? Imported candies and chocolates from US, bigay ng bisita naming kano last week. After which, blowing of the candles na. Hindi man naglagay ng candle ang Red Ribbon, buti nalang si Teacher Frances nakakita pati lighter. Tapos, lunch na. Tapos, we distributed the lootbags na puro rin candies and chocolates. Meron din namang konting toys (happy meal nga e). Tapos,  we gave each their balloons. I know gusto nila yung food kasi most of them naubos at hindi messy unlike pag spaghetti ang binili ko. Yung mga natira, binigay namin sa mga guard and teachers we know. Marami pang natira na dessert (apple pie and taro pie) kaya inuwi nalang namin.

Hay kaka -stress kaya matutulog muna ako. Nyt!

In my previous posts, I always rant about my baby's school because they always complain about her behavior. Ako naman, sobrang nagworry kasi baka madala niya hanggang paglaki. Hindi ako nakakatulog kakaisip kung paano mababago ugali niya. Basta I make sure lang na everyday, we remind her to be good in class. Sa sobrang palagi, minsan inuunahan na niya kami. The last time I asked her teachers was a few days ago kasi I don't hear from them na. All they could give me was 2 thumbs up which I interpreted as very positive feedback.

Anyway, today, we attended our first parent-teacher meeting. Hinanda ko na sarili ko sa mga sasabihin nila. Pag pasok palang namin ng room, the teachers were congratulating us. Nagtaka ako. Sabi ko parang hindi yata tama naririnig ko. Why are they happy for us? Hmm. Then, they told us that Zia is part of the Top 5 Best in Academics. Always a proud mama, gusto ko sabihin sa kanila 'i told you so' kasi I know Zia is better than what they keep on telling me. Deep inside that makulit self of hers, merong smart kid na nagtatago. She placed 4th in her class. Not bad considering all the negative feedback. Ang ine-expect ko nga lowest in class pa siya because there are times teachers grade their students based on what they feel about them. Buti nalng they saw the real Zia lurking around. :) Sabi pa ng teachers niya, ang galing ng retention ni Zia. Memorize na niya yung routine nila in class. She leads their prayer before meal. She answers all questions correctly. She entertains everybody with her song & dance number. The only problem is...guess what? Opkors, her behavior. Sabi nila, if she improves, she'll probably place 1st in the next quarters. Wow, very encouraging. Nakakatawa kasi I felt so challenged na tinanong ko kung anong meron yung 1st placer. Sabi nila the only difference between Zia and the other little girl is, yun nga, behavior...ano pa bang ibang salita na pwedeng kong ipalit diyan, gasgas na e? Parang hindi ko pa alam kunwari noh.

Well, baka naman isipin niyo gumagawa ako ng kwento...eto proof... :)

I haven't blogged for quite some time. It's because I could not find the time to do so.

I start my day at 7:00 pm. That's when I wake up and prepare for work. I leave the house at 8:00 pm and start working at 9:00 pm. I stay until 6:00 am or until Rommel picks me up. On the average, I arrive home at 7:30 am. I eat breakfast (well, that's dinner for me) and sleep from 9:00 am until Zia is ready for school. I bring her to school at 10:00 am. After which, I sleep again until I pick her up at 12:00 pm. Sometimes, the 2 hrs gap is spent making calls to banks or other offices for inquiries. Then, I eat lunch (that's midnight snack for me) and I shut down at 2:00 pm.

Ang hirap talaga pag putol putol ang tulog, parang hindi ka well rested. No complains, just justifying why I haven't blogged (",). Madadagdagan pa yan pag umalis na si Rommel because, of course, it will include talking to him on the phone or through skype for maybe an hour.

Just the other day, I applied for EPEC. It's a permit for me to be able to stay in Singapore for a year looking for a job. It's a one time deal. Pag na-deny, hindi na pwedeng mag apply. I'm planning kasi to follow ASAP para mapabilis ang pag iipon. As I read, marami talagang jobs na naghihintay dun. It's better than just staying here and earning half if not more of what I can earn if I'm there. As for Zia, tiis tiis nalang muna. She has to finish her schooling before she can follow. Mas maganda na rin yun para stable na kami dun kesa sabay sabay kaming nag aadjust.

I will keep everyone posted as soon as more changes in my life happen. Ciao! (",)

Hello everyone! I have already moved my blog to my Multiply account. If you have used this link as a shortcut, please change it to http://mroca.multiply.com. 

Thanks. Hope to see you there too. :)

"Please tend your resignation asap as you would be leaving for Singapore on Sept 10. Please attend the pre departure orientation seminar on Friday, July 27 at 3:30 pm here at our office. "

NOT for me. Hubs received this through text from the agency. After my shift yesterday, Rommel got a call from the agency. He was informed that his departure will be on Aug 13 but when he mentioned he needs to notify our office 30 days prior, it was moved to Aug 20. At first, we were both shocked because we didn't expect it would be this soon. Hindi pa kasi niya tapos yung mga requirements niya but at the same time, happy narin kasi at least sigurado na makakaalis siya. Kailangan na raw magdecide today. When probably he didn't reply yet 'coz he hasnt talked to his boss yet, he got this message as a final say.

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Last night, he told me a funny story about work. Ganito kasi. He's a coach for new hires. Meaning, he prepares new agents before they go to production. Parang Team Lead (TL) narin yung trabaho niya pero every time he applies for real thing, palagi siyang 2nd best. Recently, sabi niya bigla nalang daw siyang pinatawag for an interview pero hindi niya alam kung para saan ito kasi ang tagal na ng last application niya tsaka may nakuha na for the position. Anyway, pumunta parin siya. Their process pala is planning to form a group of potential TLs to go on internship for 2 months. He's one of the 5 chosen but of course, he turned it down. Nakakatawa siya kasi parang obvious it's a retention program. Natutunugan siguro nila na maraming nagreresign at nanghihinayan sila sa mga mawawala kaya naman bigla silang nakaisip nito. Ngayon ko lang narinig ang internship sa pagiging TL...ano pa bang internship ang kailangan e yun narin ang ginagawa ng mga coaches. Hay...pathetic.

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Going back, we now need to plan everything so that his departure and stay in Singapore will be convenient for all. We need to do a checklist...hmmm...food to bring...clothes...communication...pocket money...haaay. Ang dami. Kaya yan.

Kuya's here in the Philippines. He arrived last Saturday night but we met last Sunday afternoon at the Mall of Asia. We ate halo-halo at the Cafe Adriatico which was not that satisfying...mas masarap pa ang halo-halo ng Goldilocks and Chowking. Kung alam ko lang na ganon ka-konti ang laman, I would have insisted on the latter 2 choices. Anyway, that's over. The best thing was seeing a love-one I haven't seen for a long time. Tumaba ka, Kuya! :)

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Yesterday, I was given an option to move to another process which would hasten my promotion. I thought it would be interesting but it's not a guarantee and it would be a whole new thing for me. Kailangan kasi ng process na yon ng mga experienced analyst coming from our process. Sabi ko, I'll think about it first kasi diba nga may balak akong sumunod kay Rommel before the year ends. Sayang naman yung opportunity for others kung iga-grab ko yun tapos aalis din. Para namang niloloko ko lang sila. Well, I guess I have to consult my crystal ball, rather, my Decision Maker.

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Zia's doing good in school. Medyo lang a few days ago, she didn't get a star coz she fought with a classmate, she almost bit. Sabi ng teacher, the other kid was forcing her to sit...well, poor kid, she might have not done it the right way. Si Zia kasi medyo mana sa akin, she doesn't wanna be bossed around. Dapat sa kanya soft approach or else, mananapak...hindi naman ako ganon. Anyway, napagsasabihan ko naman siya. Everyday, I make it a point to remind her not to fight with her classmates and always listen to her teacher.

When I woke up last night, I had a hard time breathing. Thought it's the end of me so I took a bath slowly, walked slowly, and ate slowly. I got scared I might just fall to the ground without my love ones right next to me. You may call it paranoia but I always remember when my dad felt the same way before he got bypassed. When I arrived in the office, I immediately went to the clinic and asked for my bp to be checked. The result was I have a low blood pressure. This might be caused by my lack of sleep...or stress...or my desire to stop working.

Until now, I feel nauseous. I don't know if it's related but I think it is. I'm not pregnant. I coudn't be because I'm under medication. Nakakatakot magpatingin baka hindi maganda maging results. I just hope it's nothing serious.

It started last Thursday. Zia vomitted and poo-pooed twice. I got scared but did not panic. I waited until Saturday, when she puked again. Saw a big difference in her behavior. Kahit mas gusto ko siya dahil hindi siya malikot, I know it's not a good sign so I brought her to the ER of the Asian Hospital. Her fecalysis naman showed negative signs of any danger kaya I was relieved. Sabi lang ng doctor, painumin ng 5ml of Motilium and a lot of Gatorade.

Yesterday, pinapasok ko parin siya sa school but I waited outside just in case something goes wrong.  I told her teacher to reprimand my baby if she gets food from her classmates kasi baka yun ang culprit. Binantayan ko narin habang nagre-recess sila para masigurado kainin niya ang baon niya. The problem is kahit anong ipabaon ko sa kanya, hindi niya kinakain. I've bought different kinds of biscuits. Pag sa bahay gusto niyang kainin pero pag sa school, hindi niya pinapansin. I think mas marami kasing distractions sa school. I've also tried sandwiches and soup pero wala ring nangyari. Any baon ideas from moms out there?

Anyway, tomorrow, I will still be waiting for her in school. Siguro mga 1 week akong magbabantay until she's certified fit to go to school alone.